Just Let Them Be (disorder)

The older I get, the more I learn. That's how it should be, right? A lot of times things don't work out the way they should. But what can You do? You just gotta let it be. I don't know how else to handle things. Sometimes I feel I'm better off alone. You just have a higher level of autonomy when you live only for you. Otherwise, people tend to get in your head and influence you in ways that may not be for the best. There's no worries about other peoples feelings. None of that. Its just you, your goals, your dreams, and you can say "to hell" with everything else. I'm learning to just let them all be, man. Just let them be. I cant change nobody. I have no desire to. All I wanna do is live my life the best that I can live it. Ain't apart of no group. I ain't apart of no club. Its just me. I'm not bound by anyones regulations. I just do my own shit. You don't like it, leave me the fuck alone! Got it! Fuck it, I just keep on moving. I've been allowing nonsense to hold me down for far too long. I wanna let go. Just let go. On the count of three, let go. One...two...three. Its gone! I heard Al Pacino say in the movie "The Devils Advocate" that guilt is like a bag of bricks. He asks Kevin Lomax "who you carrying those bricks for...?" I felt like he was talking to me, so I just dropped my bag of bricks. I don't really need shit. I'm my own man. What do I need, outside of the obvious? I'm a renegade. I really don't worry about a thing, because I don't care about that much. Few things in life truly matter. Family, friends, the usual. But I'm so unusual, in so many different ways. I gotta be on my own, but I think I need someone other than myself, but who? Man , you can call me the cat, but I'm no pussy. I'm a man that strikes at opportunity. I'm on the night train, riding through the night with determination. I'm not here for bullshit. I don't have time for that. Just gimme whats mine, and I'm satisfied. You cant even talk to me about certain things, cause right now, I'm just not hearing it. I really cant. Hell, I might pretend, but deep down I don't care. Just can't afford to. When its all said and done, I know where I'll be. Do you? Man, I just don't care. Its bliss, truly bliss. I thought I could live in your world, but I was so wrong. I live against the grain; its starting to get comfortable. My bed is filled with stones and constantina wire, and I sleep soundly. I live in an alternate universe. Complete disorder. As of right now, i'm saying fuck it, and i'm gonna let them be, cause I know it really dosen't matter.